Mused! How Can Someone Be Bored Of Life?

this is something that i have heard from my one time neighbor jaya aunty when she was counseling me when i was down and questioned the very reason for my existence, guess it is from some management book .

if you are little imaginative like me, then you will have to spend at least a minute on each of these lines to actually understand what it means.

here it goes!
... there is something that you know that you know ... there is something that you know that you don't know ... there is something that you don't know that you know ...but there is so much that you don't know that you don't know.

isn't this the fact of life. we think, we dream about dreamable, thinkable things, but there is so much that we never imagine. such is life. and such is the unbounded quest.

we all need to go through the mêlée of life, some emerge victorious, some succumb to it and refuse to see beyond.

i read that some chokras have attempted suicide due to failure in tenth standard exams. how stupid are the parents, a memory exam, a god damn memory exam it is, it cant be so important. how could the parents pressurize their children so much that they decide to die, rather than face them.

i believe that a person who cannot accept defeat gracefully, cant win either. i take pride in all my defeats. i failed in my twelfth class, failed in my bsc first year. i ended up taking 7 years to complete my junior and senior college studies. but i count them as the best years of my life. had i not failed for those two years, i wouldn't have been able to come this far. sometimes, life takes you to places you never knew existed. and though miffed and scared at the first instance, if you let the ambiance penetrate your mind and impregnate you with the goodness that it is bestowed with.... soon, you will see the 'a' and 'c' of s'ca'red change places, and this will become one of the most s'ac'red experiences of your life.

but nevertheless, one has to dare. dare to believe that there is an other world which you have not dreamt of. a world full of happiness and smiles beckons you. but are you willing to see what lies in store with an open mind.

everything happens for the good, even the bad, happens for the good. i was raped at 7. i did try ending my life. but now, years later, i am not upset. i am in fact thankful. thankful to god for having given me the courage to stand strong through the ordeal and beyond. over the years i have seen so many people, so many people who are still confused about their sexuality, many who still cant face the world with confidence. as compared to that, i have a gush of affirmations flowing through my veins and am certain that good things will happen to me. had i not been raped at that age, i wouldn't have got the energy to rise like a phoenix and emerge a winner in my own eyes. i might phonate self pride and ahamkaar, which i believe is necessary for every human, but in the right proportions. secondly, this incident and the many humiliations i faced thereafter made me understand the mind of the inflicted, the one who gets in it, alone knows how to get out of it. all others who have not experienced it but advocate things, are just trying to empathize, but most of theirs are just theories. im glad, i was raped, i know the pain, and i wish to use my experience constructively to help others.

"ohh! thats a publicity stunt." thats what i have heard from some fucking myopic people often, who cant look at the larger picture. do you guys really think that someone would like to do a propaganda about an act as gory as child sex abuse and speaking about it can give someone pleasure. okie for all you wretched souls, i am willing to believe that i am speaking about this often, because i like to bask in the glory of being a survivor of the gory incidences. but even in that case, whats important is that "it is helping people". other survivors find a confidant in me. there are many who confess about similar incidences in their life. and they do so, because of "the sailing in the same boat" effect.

in short, life is beautiful. and also the bad could be converted to the good. isn't life a paradox. i believe it is. what about you.

~Aham~

Penis, Mightier Than The Sword!

authored by me are some messages and quotes for and about the man(un)kind:

• "too much vagina causes angina" (so become a penis loyalist instead)
• "a man's soul is where the hole is. it doesn't matter whose hole. its a hole and that solely matters to man's soul" (men are "try"sexual beings)
• "penis, mightier than the sword" (man and ego are synonyms of each other)
• "thank god. she has made men without a hymen"
• "queers dont stray. men dont go out to play. (and i dont lie... or do i?)"
• "men look for oranges as they are bored of fondling peanuts all their life"
• "men who brag about their elasticity often forget the cavity that opened three times its size to get them out to this world" (speak about elastic egos, speak about men)

~Aham~

Fother Muckers: TV Channels Capitalising On Sensationalism

aghast! i was, seeing the way the channels depicted the riots in bombay yesterday. the sikhs were disturbed and they were with daggers in mulund station in central mumbai and disrupted the trains and scared the commuters. me, being the product of a sikh institution, quite relate to them, but also understand that this is no way to protest. sikhs, as i know personally, are one of the most humane people in the world. hospitality and sensitivity runs in their blood. an act like this by some, brings shame to me who has imbibed the humanitarian sikh values.

my dear sikh brothers, "essence of wisdom is service to humanity". an "eye for an eye would leave the nation blind". there are better ways to protest which could be humane. and the sensible people that we are, this act is definately dissappointing. something not expected of you.

but whats more disappointing, is th way the channels aaj tak and newsx depicted the whole agitation. there is something known as "media social responsibility". which i am sure, both these channels fail to understand. previously aajtak invited the wrath of the gay community by shamefully trying to trouble some kids who were partying. the details of which are here. and now this.

aaj tak, i thought was a sensible channel. how could you. with such good shows in aaj tak why this blot. why?

these two channels showed people from the sikh community causing damage to the railway tracks and scarring people with daggers. and post that they showed the sikhs being beaten up by the police brutally. why cant these channels understand that this will instigate the already furious sikhs to take to the streets and cause chaos. and now, i will not blame the sikhs, as a product of khalsa, even i was angry looking at the way the sikhs were beaten up. videos of a women pleading to the police to spare her husband from the lathi charge and a sikh man beaten up repeatedly by the police, would infuriate anybody.

dear channels, educated as you are, (i suppose) could you please decide on what to show and what not. ndtv didnt show this video. i didnt see the video on times now. they were sensible. not as insensitive as you guys. shame on you guys, for behaving so insensitively for trp's. newsx doing something like this is definitely not pardonable on humanitarian grounds, but as compared to aajtak you are very new. aaj tak, yes the number 1 channel you are, but the way things are heading, im sure, you guys will become another india tv.
shame on you.

do you guys feel that the genral public is dumb. (on second thoughts, i might agree that people who act on impulse without thinking are infact dumb... arnt they?)