Friday, February 05, 2010

I Am



where am i coming from...
where am i going.



im  lost in this tyranny  of my mind…
where am i… i cant find.


manipulative am i... is that the name.
you give an individual... shunned by shame.

why are my intentions doubted...
wonder why and where   that thought sprouted.

why am i associated with what happened then...
i look for beyond, but when will people see...
i really wonder when?


i look for myself within, i cant find...
i look in the outer... it is ill defined.

  
am i the river that silently flows by...
am i the listless dead sky.


  
everything is apart...
collating broken pieces of my heart.


am i just behind and before...
not here and how...
but i am living...
living sometimes somehow.


i don’t know if woman am i... or am i man...
what am i ... i know naught...
the stinging bee...
or the fly that your net has caught.

give me a moment now...
i wish to whisper in your ears...
i wish to speak it now...
till your conscience can hear.

am i  living this moment…
knowing not where i be…
flowing in the creepy ocean
through the blinded sea…


i wish i could tell you..
just before... just before you draw a perception about me...
that i have no name... i have no past... i have no future...
i am empty... i am nothing…. nothing that you can think.

i am just me. i am just me.
"I AM" .. just "I AM"

10 comments:

meeta said...

insightful and an amazing work of poetry. Kudos Harish :)

ani_aset said...

Be what you are mate :) the worst thing one can do is to change the own original self..we are all unique and lets start accepting each other the way we are

LaafatLife said...

Beautiful. And you are just that. :) You are who you are. And the world will accept it. Of course it will.

bolly rev said...

stunning piece,honest and beautiful
painful ......those feelings that engulf,don't leave fully don't resolve fully ,yet the self sorts out a waywhich we call peace within us..hope it prevails..Love ur ending..

siddhya said...

everything is because i am. the world will end when i die. i think ayn rand said that. :)

apoorva said...

Hey, my name is Apoorva, I'm a student of journalism in the Asian
College of Journalism. I was very interested in writing a story on the LGBT community in Chennai.

LGBT rights is something I have a lot of personal interest in promoting. I would really appreciate it if there
was someone I could speak to on this topic, for any kind of
information.i would love even an email address!

my email is fryingbunny@gmail.com if anyone can get in touch with me i would be eternally grateful.

Thanks a lot,

Apoorva

deepti said...

i am and will be nothing but before being nothing will i be anything, anything at all?
i don know...

shruti said...

Very nicely written. My fav lines: i look for myself within, i cant find...
i look in the outer... it is ill defined.

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