find no love, feel it!

i have been here eons before.
here my heart was brought to the fore.

the hearts met, promises were made
i discovered myself under his shade.

then he said, you are mine.
lets undress, lets unwind

we then rolled over the hay,
i felt divine, like night shone over day.

my lips met his,
it was bliss.

he said,
the words in bed.

one by one we turned around, and our virgin joys were spayed,
suddenly under the brazen coldness of heated day,

we started the end
with pretense. 

then i realized i was devoid,
null and void.

my silence was lost in the world so quiet,
i found my shadows disappear under the light.

never could again,
feel love flowing in the same vein.  

full of ifs and buts.
i turned a slut

the world loves a lover, until he is ditched.
life is a crazy witch

the world teased my fears,
while i fleeced my tears

until my eyes were dry,
and i couldn’t cry.

i saw no hope, in the world so dark
shared my bed with many, just to spot the spark.

then one day, star shone bright.
to the web of someone, i clung tight.

i thought id never say it again,
but said the words from my heart so inane.

i hung on to the phone, and smiled away,
with speechless eyes hollered yay!

you made me blush, but left in rush,
with no sound, he left my mind unsound

i remember the day, i wanted to die.
now, i want my life to fly.

i was once a wingless bird. 
i have now found new wings; want to flaunt them to the world.

i want to fly away in the virgin sky,
now, today i want to live, id choose another day to die.

now i no more have to find love, i just have to feel it.

i’m loving it, living it … within me.