Saturday, May 05, 2012

Forgive When People Repent

Most would know. Since I have ranted about this on national television in utmost attention-hugging glory of video cameras. - I was bullied in college about my sexuality. Much that even I wasn't sure about my sexuality then. I attempted suicide. Now, years later, 15 years to be precise, he called me, he apologised. This is what I replied.

#JustToldSomeone

"Your sin, you say, is the fact that you maligned my name. 
Pushed me down. 
Bullied me. 
Made a sham. 
 Made me a shame. 


You say you gave me sleepless nights. 
And dark days."


"Yes, I am upset with you. 
I seek revenge. 
So I forgive you. 
I will wait with my arms wide open to hug you. 
Believe me, this hug would be the tightest, loveliest and most personal. 


And then, I will be sporting a quirky smile. 
Because if your conscience then pricks you, you are transformed. 
And if it doesn't, you were never humane, so I have no reason to hate another species that has no instinct to love. "


"Hate destroys the hater. 
And why do you think I will destroy myself for you. 
I don't love you so much too. "


Yes, you heard it right, I forgive you your sins, as I forgive myself for believing in you then. 
It's been 15 years my friend that you started a hate campaign against me in college. 
And beyond philosophy, I have no hate for you. J
ust open arms to hug you.
Come!

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It feels nice to know that some people follow me like how fanatics follow religion. But that puts the onus on me, to be responsible and besides my quirky- stupid posts I also share some milestones in my life. And some anecdotes that inspire me. I have always been my own inspiration. And I have had no shame in admitting that even at the risk of sounding pompous. I know that this could lead to people thinking I am too proud and insane. Well, you have the right to your opinion. And your observation is not false. Just that I see no wrong in being proud of what you are and what you have achieved if your intent is just to share and in the process ignite a thought wave for transformation. Imagine, if no one shared stories of transformation, the world would will be full of fallacy and pain and murderous blunders. Hai naa?

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